The Love of The Father

Well fixing to turn the lights out on Father's Day 2009!  It was completely, literally uneventful for me.  Lailey and I stayed in...didn't go to church because she is kinda croupy sounding and don't want to put her in the nursery cause then she truly would be sick and she more than likely would not sit through the service without yelling at the top of her lungs during Pastor's message.  

I have been a little contemplative today.  I've thought about my life and what it would have been like had my dad not passed away 23 years ago this year!  That is so hard to believe...and yet it's not.  Sometimes I feel like he never was and other times I'll remember something vividly and feel like it was yesterday that we told him goodbye.  It's pretty impossible to look at my daughter and not feel the weight of his absence, especially when considering the way she made it in the world. However, I am quickly reminded of God's providence and how He just makes a way for us.  He carves out the path, the road that WE need when we need it to meet our needs.  I am thankful for a wonderful step-dad, who has now been in my life as long as my father was.  He is polar opposite, personality wise, from my dad but he is a good man and he loves and takes care of my mom and mine and now my daughters needs when we need it and I am grateful to him for that!  Thanks Papa Mac!

I also cannot go through this day without whispering thanks to my heavenly Father for His unending goodness, faithfulness, and perfect parenting!  As I type, I hear Lailey's heavy respirations as she sleeps peacefully next to me and I'm almost overwhelmed by my Father's love for me and His willingness to give me the desires of my heart.  How could I not pause today to give Him the highest form of appreciation?  I cannot.  So I praise Him.  I give him all the glory and honor and praise for being who He is and for fathering an often faithless and thankless child.  He truly is the source of all that is good in my life and the power behind anything successful!  

I hope it's been a great day for everyone!  Remember to thank your earthly dads, stepdads, men of prominence, hubby's, and most importantly the One who came up with the whole concept of "fatherhood.'  

Peace....

Curls vs. Humidity...

The heat index at 3pm today said 112! ONE HUNDRED AND TWELVE PEOPLE!!!!!! This - is - SEWIOUS!(to quote ming ming the wonder pet) It's the end of June and I'm just wondering what July and August will hold for us. I would say I can't take it but what am I to do? I've resorted already to NO makeup and just forget about my hair. If you have naturally curly hair, like me, you know exactly what I'm talking about. I used to LOATHE my curls but honestly I don't mind them now. I actually think having curly hair in this humidity is actually better. Cause what about those poor folks with just wavy hair? They try to straighten, 10 minutes outside and...that was a waste!

So I'm in the bed, writing...well trying to write....next to my sleeping, newly turned 10 month old! It is hard to believe Lailey is 10 months. When you hear moms and dads say, "you won't believe how fast the time will go" they weren't kidding. This is CRAZY! It was like YESTERDAY that I was pregnant with her. It's been the most incredible 10 months of my life. Lailey is truly a joy and so much fun. She's entering that stage of starting to be really really funny. I laugh, for real, many times a day at her faces, noises, expressions, innocence. God so knew what he was doing when he planned this whole thing....babies.

I think there is something different about being a mom later in life. I was 39 when I had her and while there are certainly challenges, i think my thought processing is...well better. I see young moms who freak out at the smallest things. Don't get me wrong. I'm concerned! I'm just not overly dramatic. Lailey recently had to have a 3D Head Scan for a small bump on her forehead that has been there since she was born and when the doctor starting saying things like, "frontal lobing, brain lesion, skull sutures" I COULD have freaked out but I didn't. I had about a 30 minute "processing" time where I was very quiet and contemplative but I was NEVER freaked out. I knew it was nothing(and it wasn't). I know half a dozen young moms who would have flipped their wig over something like this. I thank God for Lailey this late in life. I'm more patient, I'm more understanding and knowledgable of just life in general. No offense to ANY young moms out there. It's a hard job no matter when and how you are doing it! I just see kind of a pattern here.